I hate how read-more cuts just don’t fucking work.

It is not constructive nor supportive at all when a student asks their tutor some advice on their chosen topic and for you to criticise it to the point that you say “That topic is useless, and obsolete.  There is no benefit to be gained for it and it will be not much more and possibly less than a waste of anyone’s time.”  Not one single thing either of you said was possibly helpful. 

I honestly could get behind you saying “That is not a beneficial project to take up, however if you prefer, you could do this instead” but no.  Not a single one of you said that, not even the tutor.  All I heard was a big fat mockingly resounding no, that’s a stupid topic don’t do it.
 

It does not help that the tutor wholeheartedly agreed with your hurtful “observations” and stating that “it’s just the way the cookie crumbles”, that this is a harsh reality to be faced with.  I GET THAT.  I GET that it will be difficult finding a job like that in the industry but I wish you could just understand that his is someone’s

No you know what cut the bullcrap letter format

This is my dream.  My choice.  My goddamn project.  I understand that virtually nothing is stopping me from doing it, but when I asked the tutor for his advice, I did not ask for yours.  My question was not an invitation to have an open forum on the many disadvantages to having concept art as a choice on anything. 

Virtually all I heard from the class, when I was trying to justify getting an okay from Alex to have concept art as my topic, as a whole truckload of nay saying.  I am not exaggerating when I quoted them.  That were their words, verbatim. 

While I could just ignore the class, and do this because I wanted to, the absolutely worst part was that my tutor agreed, saying the concept art is a dead end and that nothing can be gained from it, and not just from the perspective of marking guidelines, but apparently as a career choice.

I honestly wanted to shout.  I wanted to state firmly, I wanted to go all Phoenix Wright on the table and shout a motherfucking objection but I couldn’t.  They made a point of saying that any entry level concept artist in the industry will end up nowhere because the art they produce is never good enough and not good enough to go anywhere.  I understand the careers start at the bottom of a ladder.  The entire “discussion” the workshop/class had felt targeted at me and now, thanks to that, m,y depression is back full swing and guess fucking what

I cannot draw

I cannot draw single fucking thing now

I just get flashbacks of all of them saying things about concept art

fuck I didn’t even get to show Alex my presentation (in which the purpose was to justify and explain your topic) because everyone just took turns in discussing with him how absolute shite that topic is

No, they all just kept talking, i tried to open my mouth to say something to stand up and i just felt so helpless like it was already decided that i’m nothing

So thanks.

Fucking thank you IND302

I am back in that same hole last year

I CANNOT FUCKING DRAW OR LOOK AT ART BECAUSE I JUST WANT TO CRY AND GOUGE MY EYES OUT AND DIE BECAUSE I FEEL ABSOLUTELY WORTHLESS IN EVERYTHING I DO

Thanks a whole fucking lot.