cut because reasons

I have 2 days left to make up my mind about my learning contract

i honestly am at a loss right now

i’m going to contact alex again, but not sure what kind of approach i should have in the email.

should i be pointed and say how he wasn’t helpful at all despite me asking him advice?  nothing constructive came out of his mouth that day?

or should i just sheep out and act like he helped me totally on monday?

i know what i should ask, i need to clarify whether the entire open forum on the validity of my project was a backhanded yes or a sarcastic remark, cookie-crumbles bull crap with a very hidden no.

i’m getting repetitive emails about how i’m a student at risk and that i should meet with the supervisor more than just during the workshop because if i don’t they can kick me out

serious

If you have received an email about being regarded as a “student at risk”, can you please make sure that you take the appropriate action mentioned in that email - either attend the academic workshops, see your unit coordinators or meet me.

If you do not take these steps, be aware that we do have the means to exclude you from your classes.

the email preceding that was a lot friendlier, but honestly for all i know it’s just a generic letter with the names and reasons replaced that was mass emailed - which is what it did sound like.

and i suppose i’ll plan to as of next week, this week i still need to iron out what the fuck i need to do for my project

but if you guys remember my last post, I’m pretty much fucked until i fix this shit inside my head

i really can’t recommend qantm to anyone remotely unstable, the shit i go through any normal person could take, but i swear i wasn’t this bad when i started uni.

there is virtually no student support there, and the supposed student support advisor is just a mouthpiece for the student handbook.

guys i’ll be honest

i don’t know if i can finish this course

it’s literally broken me to pieces and i’m barely put together as it is, if monday is any evidence of the fact.  

fuck

people will just be like “uni isn’t for everyone, you can’t hack it, you don’t have what it takes for uni, you have too many issues for uni”

and that’s all that honestly in my head right now.

depression’s in full swing.

fun fun times.